This is how I tick, musically speaking.
It is no mystery that I like to stim to music. My entire life is adorned with music. I bring music everywhere I can. Yes, even in the MRI machines that look at my brain to make sure my cancer hasn’t come back. If they allow me to listen to music during the MRI, then I listen to music during the MRI.
A lot of the music I listen to is emotionally charged in one way or another. Sometimes I cry just because the piece is arranged in a way that moves me to tears. Sometimes, however, I cry because of the lyrics, and how the piece came into my orbit around the time of a breakup. Or I cry because the song was one that made me think about a partner of mine, that has since become an ex.
So here are those songs that made me cry, and in some cases still make me cry. Most of these songs are related to the various relationships I had with my exes.
I’ve bolded the lines that are especially emotionally charged for me.
Wish I Knew You by The Revivalists
This one came around when I was talking about divorce with my ex-wife. She’s 20-years older than I am. The age gap hasn’t been a big problem during our time together, but sometimes it grips me. So yeah, I wish I had known her when she was young.
I’m now dating people quite a bit younger than I am. So this song is still relevant. I’m happy to have them in my life now, but I’d still would have liked them to know me when I was young.
You shine like a star You know who you are You're everything beautiful She's hot, hot like the sun The loneliest one Still everything beautiful Well I'll be god damned You're standing at my door We stayed up in the city Until the stars lost the war So Friday night, holy ghost Take me to your level Show me the one I need the most I need the most I wish I knew you when I was young We could've got so high Now we're here it's been so long Two strangers in the bright lights Oh I hope you don't mind We can share my mood yeah Two strangers in the bright lights I wish I knew you I wish I knew you Oh I wish I knew you when I was young Truth, it's all that you need You bury that seed It's everything beautiful And that sound comes from the underground It's all inside you now It's everything beautiful But what you, what you, what you, what you running from? And they got, they got, they got, they got you on the run? So Friday night Holy ghost Take me to your level Show me the one I need the most I need the most I wish I knew you when I was young We could've got so high Now we're here it's been so long Two strangers in the bright lights Oh and I hope you don't mind We can share my mood, yeah Two strangers in the bright lights I wish I knew you I wish I knew you Oh I wish I knew you when I was young Maybe we can share my mood Hmm hmm hmm Maybe we can share my mood Hmm hmm hmm Maybe we can share my mood Hmm hmm hmm I wish I knew you when I was young We could've got so high Now we're here it's been so long Two strangers in the bright lights Oh and I hope you don't mind We can share my mood, yeah Two strangers in the bright lights I wish I knew you I wish I knew you Oh I wish I knew you when I was young
Source: LyricFind
Brother by Stuck In The Sound
This song came into my orbit a bit before my first breakup with a girl who was into BDSM. This sexual encounter was a revelation. It was the discovery of BDSM. Our encounter transformed me. We had made plan to meet again, but circumstances beyond our control dashed those plans.
The lyrics say she’s just a ghost, but it was her who ghosted me. She was neurodivergent, like I am, and did not see a way forward. So she shut the door.
God I need love Time off for my tender fall, and now Gotta save a friend soul, you'll fix the broken me bro' God I need love Time off for my tender fall, and now Gotta save a friend soul, you'll fix the broken me bro' Can't you see this? I'm a man without tomorrow She's just a ghost, but I cannot stop myself from loving her Can you save me? I'm a man stuck here forever God I need love Time off for my tender fall, and now Gotta save a friend soul, you'll fix the broken me bro' And now you'll broken me Broken me Bro, bro Can't you see this? I'm a man without tomorrow She's just a ghost, but I cannot stop myself from loving her Can you save me? I'm a man stuck here forever She's just a ghost, but I cannot stop myself from loving her Can you save me? Can you save me? Can you save me brother? Can you save me? I'm a man without tomorrow
Source: Musixmatch
Into The Night by Nero
This one came into my orbit at the same time as the previous breakup I mention above. She thought I was going a bit fast.
Baby, let's drive into the night Just get up and go, leave our worlds behind It's so easy if you just say that you might Just get up and go, leave it all behind Baby, I just wanna get it right Let's just take this slow, I hope that you don't mind It's so easy if you wait another night Just go with the flow, leave it all behind Just go with the flow, leave it all behind Just go with the flow, leave it all behind Baby, let's drive into the night Just get up and go, leave our worlds behind It's so easy if you just say that you might Just get up and go, leave it all behind Baby, I just wanna get it right Let's just take this slow, I hope that you don't mind It's so easy if you wait another night Just go with the flow, leave it all behind Baby, let's drive into the night Just get up and go, leave our worlds behind It's so easy if you just say that you might Just get up and go, leave it all behind So baby, let's just get away the night Pack up all your bags, start another life If we leave right now, we'll be there before it's light Do you wanna go, leave it all behind? Baby, I just wanna get it right Let's just take this slow, I hope that you don't mind It's so easy if you wait another night Just go with the flow, leave it all behind Baby, I just wanna get it right Let's just take this slow, I hope that you don't mind It's so easy if you wait another night Just go with the flow, leave it all behind Just go with the flow, leave it all behind Just go with the flow, leave it all behind
Source: LyricFind
No Lullaby by Siamés
This is the first song linked to my relationship with the girl I call my greatest success and my greatest failure. I never go into relationships timidly. I simply adored her. In the end, she betrayed me. It just baffles my mind how great she was when we were at our best, and how awful she turned out to be.
Her background prior to knowing me was really hard. She had a tough childhood. No Lullaby is about two kids from a broken home, and for whom there is no lullaby. If you just look at the visuals, you’d think this is a happy song through and through, but the words. I remember crying in front of my girl when the music video for this song came up. I just couldn’t help it.
Blinding lights, thunder tremble pack Muddy hearts, Beanie Babies lies There's no lullaby in this nowhere land Shining high, rumbles in the dark Torn apart, devil in disguise There's no lullaby in this nowhere land What's the meaning when you have a broken home, home, home? Where's the love when you were left on your own? So alone Tumbling dice, sentimental crap Who's the smart leading daily cries? There's no lullaby in this nowhere land What's the meaning when you have a broken home, home, home? Where's the love when you were left on your own? What's the meaning when you have a broken home, home, home? Where's the love when you were left on your own? So alone Ah-ah Ah-ah Ah-ah What's the meaning when you have a broken home, home, home? Where's the love when you were left on your own? What's the meaning when you have a broken home, home, home? Where's the love when you were left on your own? So alone Who said you're on your own?
Source: Musixmatch
Magic by Mystery Skulls
This is a love song that was very meaningful to me. The world was telling me to give up on her. Heck, my very own father was telling me this. He did not realize how good she could be. Yes, she betrayed me in the end, but when we were at our best, it was like magic.
The spell you got on me, it's like magic Got me feeling like falling in love Got me feeling like I'll never give up on Got me feeling like I'll never give up on you It's like magic I got you feeling like you're falling in love I got you feeling like you'll never give up on I got you feeling like you'll never give up on It's like magic Got me feeling like falling in love Got me feeling like I'll never give up on Got me feeling like I'll never give up on you It's like magic I got you feeling like you're falling in love I got you feeling like you'll never give up on I got you feeling like you'll never give up on Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic, magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic, magic, magic (oh) It's not the way you wear your hair Or you just crept out of bed Oh, no It's not the way you move your eyes So, it took me by surprise Oh, no Before this night is over, I pull your body closer I wanna give it to ya, I wanna get back Before this night is over, I pull your body closer The spell you got on me, it's like magic Got me feeling like falling in love Got me feeling like I'll never give up on Got me feeling like I'll never give up on you It's like magic I got you feeling like you're falling in love I got you feeling like you'll never give up on I got you feeling like you'll never give up on Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic, magic, magic oh Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic, magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic, magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic, magic, magic (oh) Never give up on us Never give up on you Never give up on us Never give up on Never give up on us Never give up on you Never give up on Never give up on you, baby Never give up on us Never give up on you Never give up on us Never give up on Never give up on us Never give up on you Never give up on Never give up on you, baby The spell you got on me, it's like magic Got me feeling like falling in love Got me feeling like I'll never give up on Got me feeling like I'll never give up on you It's like magic I got you feeling like you're falling in love I got you feeling like you'll never give up on I got you feeling like you'll never give up on It's like magic Got me feeling like falling in love Got me feeling like I'll never give up on Got me feeling like I'll never give up on you It's like magic I got you feeling like you're falling in love I got you feeling like you'll never give up on I got you feeling like you'll never give up on Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic, magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic (oh) Magic, magic, magic, magic (oh)
Source: Musixmatch
Invincible by Mystery Skulls
This song is about the same girl. She was into BDSM. She wanted praise. So I gave her praise freely. The passage “You’re invincible, you’re unbreakable, and you’re capable/Whether you like it or not” was especially resonating with me.
Invincible Right now and forever As long as we're still together This could be paradise Invincible (invincible) Right now and forever (forever, baby) As long as we're still together This could be paradise Invincible (invincible) Right now and forever (forever, baby) As long as we're still together This could be paradise Invincible (invincible) Right now and forever (forever, baby) As long as we're still together This could be paradise Are you seeing this? It's so much stronger than we thought You're invincible, you're unbreakable, and you're capable Whether you like it or not Are you seeing this? You can move metal with your mind (your mind) And with your brain, it's stoppin' time It's like you're unstoppable (Invincible) Invincible (invincible) Right now and forever (forever, baby) As long as we're still together This could be paradise Invincible (invincible) Right now and forever (forever, baby) As long as we're still together This could be paradise Invincible (invincible) Invincible Invincible Are you seeing this? It's so much stronger than we thought You're invincible, you're unbreakable, and you're capable Whether you like it or not Are you seeing this? You can move metal with your mind And with your brain, it's stoppin' time (oh) It's like you're on some god power (invincible) Invincible (invincible) Right now and forever (forever, baby) As long as we're still together This could be paradise Invincible (invincible) Invincible Invincible Invincible
Source: Musixmatch
Dying For You by Mystery Skulls
Same girl. I mentioned above adoring her, not wanting to abandon her, and not going into relationships timidly. I was ready to walk through the fires of hell for her, and I actually did walk through the fires of hell, but that was not enough.
[Chorus: Mystery Skulls] Would you die for me like I'd die for you? If it all somehow came down to this like a summer premonition Would you die for me like I'd die for you? If it all somehow came down to this like a summer premonition Would you die for me like I'd die for you? If it all somehow came down to this could you leave it with a kiss? [Post-Chorus: Both, Snowblood] I'd die for you I'm dying for you I'd die for you I'm dying for you I'd die for you [Chorus: Mystery Skulls, both] Would you lie for me like I'd lie for you? If it all came somehow down to this, would'ya do it? I'd die for you Would you die for me like I'd die for you? If it all somehow came down to this like a summer premonition I'd die for you Would you die for me like I'd die for you? If it all somehow came down to this could you leave it with a kiss? I'm dying for you Would you die for me like I'd die for you? If it all somehow came down to this like a summer premonition I'd die for you Would you die for me like I'd die for you? If it all somehow came down to this like a summer premonition I'd die for you Would you die for me like I'd die for you? If it all somehow came down to this could you leave it with a kiss? [Post-Chorus: Both, Snowblood] I'd die for you I'm dying for you I'd die for you I'm dying for you I'd die for you I'd die for you
Source: Genius
Souk Eye by Gorillaz
This song came into my orbit when I was breaking up with the girl I’ve been talking about for the past few songs. Initially, I cried whenever this song came up. I no longer do, but my belly contracts whenever it comes up.
LA, why you're so complicated for me, twilight Waiting on the planet to turn to me, dark side If loving you's a felony now, then I'm a renegade, riding Trying to find tomorrow ain't easy 'Til you dive in Why you rolling waves over me now, it's all I need, dreaming Waiting on LA to come find me, be forgiven I'll be a regular guy for you, I never said I'd do that Why you looking so beautiful to me now when you're so sad? I will always think about you That's why I'm calling you back On my way through I wanna stay with you for a long time I wanna be your stone, love I wanna see it lay in your eyes When I'm leaving with your love I will always think about you That's why I'm calling you back 'Cause I gotta run soon I will always think about you That's why I'm calling you back On my way through
Source: LyricFind
The Pink Phantom by Gorillaz
This song is a doozy. It also came into my orbit at the time of the breakup with the girl I’ve been talking about. For the first week after our breakup I cried almost nonstop from the time I woke up to the time I went to bed. Whenever this song came up, I was crying anew. I still cry to this day whenever it comes up.
This is a multifaceted song, but one aspect of this song is that it is about a breakup. The lyrics of this song also reflect the story between my girl and me. I did put her name “in my rhymes,” so to speak. I’m a writer, but not a songwriter. However, I wrote about her in my prose under an assumed name.
I also tried to give her everything she might need. I went to NAMI (the National Alliance on Mental Illness) for her. People I talked to were literally falling off their chairs when I told her I had been her boyfriend for only four months. Family members are typically not this fast.
In the end, she betrayed me.
You've more or less forgotten me this summer I can't hide my disappointment I was on my way in the Phantom V The one you gave away Try to tell you that I love you but I'm choked up You forgot and that makes me feel like no one (summer nights) Were you even really there? Did you ever really care? Wait, I got so many examples of all of the good times we had Long summer nights (summer nights) Held you a long time, put your name in my rhymes Refresh your memory of where you wanna be The Phantom's on the way, she's comin' down the street I tried to get to Atlanta On a peach blossom highway I'm tryin' to put these puzzles out of mind In a sky made of diamonds Where the world fell silent I'll be waiting for you on the other side Summer lights (everyday, everyday) Sometimes (ride where the summer goes) Summer nights Every night Summer nights I tried to say I love you But you didn't listen (summer nights) I tried to give you everything you might need (summer nights) In a sky made of diamonds And where the world is flawless I'll be waiting for you on the other side Of summer lights, summer lights Hold it in for a long time Summer lights, seems to me I'm in a dream Behind these summer lights The Phantom is coming You forgot and that makes me feel like no one She's crossing over the line Wait, I got so many examples of all of the good times we had Seems to me I'm in a dream (long summer nights, I loved you a long time) (Put your name in my rhyme, refresh your memory) Behind these summer lights (Of where you wanna be, the Phantom's on the way) (She's comin' down the street) Sometimes
Source: LyricFind
White Flag by Delta Heavy
This song also came into my orbit around the time of the same breakup. This one is more like a yearning on my part. I wanted her to come back and to tell me that she’s sorry. She was a submissive girl, and one of the things that good submissive people do is surrender to their Dom. She did it beautifully at the height of our relationship.
One night One more chance to say I'm sorry And I can't believe a lie Say you need me One night One more chance to say I'm sorry And I can't believe a lie Say you need me Wave the white flag I surrender, I surrender, I surrender Wave the white flag I surrender, I surrender, I surrender I surrender I surrender One night Say you need me One night I surrender One night One night One night One night Wave the white flag I surrender, I surrender, I surrender Wave the white flag I surrender, I surrender, I surrender I surrender I surrender One night One more chance to say I'm sorry And I can't believe a lie Say you need me One night One more chance to say I'm sorry And I can't believe a lie Say you need me One night One night One night One night
Source: Musixmatch
There you have it. There are more songs that make me cry, but I’m saving them for a future article… maybe.
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